The Vocation of Abraham
“The word of God to our Forefather Abraham, ‘Go forth from thy country,’ thou hast received as a command for thyself, as the Lord doth ask to leave all things for His sake. As an inheritance, He hath given thee a distant land, which thou hast won for Him through thy labors. Intercede for us, O holy Father Willibrord, that we may become worthy children of the Light.” (The Divine Liturgy)
This hymn, which we sing every Sunday during The Divine Liturgy at St. Willibrord makes me cry. Each time, the Holy Spirit speaks to my heart about my own journey from Idolatry to Sobriety to Orthodoxy. I have been on this journey for the past 15 years. Déjà vu all over again and again. One-Day-At-A-Time.
“RARELY HAVE we seen a person fail who has thoroughly followed our path … Our stories disclose in a general way what we used to be like, what happened, and what we are like now. If you have decided you want what we have and are willing to go to any length to get it—then you are ready to take certain steps.” (The Big Book – Chapter 5 ‘How It Works’)
Ignited inside every Orthodox soul is an ember that slowly grows into a flame, which needs to be fanned and fueled so that it never fades away. This holy fire—this sacred light of Holy Tradition—becomes a most precious possession. The Orthodox Christian is called to protect, preserve and pass it on pure and whole, keeping it intact in its entirety for each and every believer who comes after him. (Harry Boosalis)
“Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these Steps, we tried to carry this message to alcoholics, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.” ( Step 12)
In a nustshell.
Towards the end, the last several years all I wanted to do was drink. I had to drink. All I could do, was drink. It was all that mattered. Alcohol was all I thought about. All I wanted. Alcohol was my life, my god. I could not live without it. I could no longer live with it. The Gift of Desperation.
Complete, absolute change. Repentance. Turn away and start walking in the other direction. A 180. (Steps 1-3. Mark 1:15 and Matthew 3:1-2) No more alcohol, ever again. A new life. A new beginning. A gift, a package I receive and keep unwrapping every day. A new way to live. The gift of New Life. (John 10:9-10)
My New Life with God. Right Worship/Glory of The Living Triune God and not my previous idolatry of alcoholic self. The Gift of Mercy and Grace that has been given to me undeservedly. The package I have not yet started to unwrap, but hold in my hands, dumbfounded and stare at and wonder in amazement. Why me?
“There is another meaning for the Hebrew word that in the King James version of the Bible is translated “salvation.” It is: “to come home.” (The Big Book-Chapter 3 – ‘Women Suffer Too’)
Home. No Where any longer, but Now Here, yet to come and forever more.
~ Glory to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, both now and forever and to the ages of ages ~ AMEN